I have been dating a married man for one year, six months and roughly twenty days. As I start my blog journey, I am reflecting on what the hell I am thinking at this point. It sounds much worse than it is, he was seperated when we began to see each other with a wife who had moved out more than six months prior. But all this time later, he is not divorced, his wife has moved back home and I am not a real part of his life. I have met his 3 children each once or twice in the entire time we have been together. Actually, it sounds pretty much as bad as it is. At the end of May, I told him that he needed to to file the papers and move out by the end of June or I would walk away.
As the end of June approaches, I wonder what will happen, Will he take care of these things? Will I be able to walk away if he doesn't? I feel like all I do is give him "chances" and wonder what I am getting in return. I know he loves me but have always felt like there was something missing. It is almost like I am not enough in some way, you know the influence you have over someone who adores you. He is too quick to say no to me and too hesitant to make me a part of his life. I am deeply in love with him and want a future with him and his children.
