I have been dating a married man for 1 year, 9 months and just about 2 weeks. I love this man and I think he loves me. I have been patient and understanding and pretty much wonderful...if I do say so myself. Two weeks ago, I was ready to walk away. Two months ago, I was ready to walk away. A year ago, I was ready to walk away. Last night, I was ready to walk away. But, I stay.
He told me two weeks ago "things will be different from this day forward". Nothing has been different. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with him. Does he perceive things differently than other people? Does he have multiple personalities? Is he just wishy washy or slightly dilusional? Is this what I have to look forward to on the off chance things work out between us?
Now, he is also wonderful...completely and totally. He calls me "beautiful girl" and he means it. He thinks I am the prettiest girl he has ever met...now, I think most men tell their wife/girlfriend that and mean it in their own way...but he MEANS it. Being with him is pure happiness for me. Doing nothing with him is wonderful. I just love spending time with him. I envision a future with him but it seems too far away, this unreachable dream that consumes my thoughts.
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