The "little" boys

For almost two years, I have been anxious to get to know his children, especially the little one. Finally, we have started spending time with our little boys AND I love it. Being a mom is the most rewarding thing in my life and spending time with my son is something I would choose over anything. I was worried that when the boys met, they wouldn't click or maybe even wouldn't like each other. I wondered if after waiting all this time, it would be unnatural to be together with them. We have spent about 98% of our relationship alone.

The other night, they came to pick us up, this was the first time we had done something as simple as ride in a car together. Nico had his DS and Jack had his. iPod. They sat in the back seat playing their games and chatting with each other. At the restaurant, they played their games, squished some dough and ate pizza. It was pure happiness for me, just a normal family night out with our kids. I watched the boys interact just like they would with any other friend, none of the grown up uncomfortableness was there. They have a ton in common, from Star Wars and legos to being a little brother to teenagers to being that kid who is able to hang out with grown ups at a restaurant after bed time for most kids.

This is real progress and what I've been asking for. I wonder what will happen next? Is a happy future actually beginning? The more I get, the more I want...I want to spend every night with him and most days too. I want to think about both little boys. I want to do his laundry and clean up his messes. I even want to smell his stinky farts while we lay in bed, cuddling, watching our shows or talking or having spider solitaire wars. I want to grow old with him and know that I am forever his and he is forever mine.


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